..."walaupun mak kehilangan kaki..."...

Errmmm... Alhamdulillah... Kaki Tok aku selamat di potong. Before she going to operation theater, I was taking care of her for one day *sehari suntuk aku jaga dia*.

Dari mandikan dia, tukar lampin, bagi makan ubat semuanya aku yang buat. Tambah yang tukar lampin tu, bukan sekali dia buang air *x mainla buang air kecil*, tapi aku rasa lebih dari 5 kali. And only me to clean up everything because she doesn't want 1 Indonesian girl *bibik* to do it. Sometimes she forgot what's going on surrounding her. And always call me Aisyah *my cousin* she forgot my name. And sometimes she called me Puteh *my auntie*

Sedih sgt. Sebab masa aku kecil dulu, dia penah jaga aku, mandikan aku, bagi aku makan, tukar lampin aku.. Tapi skang ni, aku yang buat suma tu.. x dapat nak gambarkan saat aku sabarkan dia, mntak dia byk2 berdoa, ingatkan Allah swt dan dia cakap,

"Doakan Tok ye"..
Yes, of course I will pray for you.. Because I'm your grand daughter.

How to describe her? She is a hardworking person, she like to cook, like to eat and like to babbling. Memang sgt rajin, sbb walaupun dia sakit, dia bley masak utk kami sekeluarga, bley plak nak basuh baju sendrik yang x tahan tu, tok aku ni mmg independent habis. But dia mmg ske membebel, ada je x kene. For me sometimes she are very annoying because always babbling about simple things. But now I miss that moment. I want hear her voice *she always scolded me* Her smile.. Her touch... God.. I miss all of that..

Skang.. dia terlantar di hospital, kehilangan sebelah kaki. Aku selalu bisikkan kalimah suci Al Quran, aku bergurau dengan dia supaya hiburkan hati yg gundah tu. Pas lap badan dia, aku bedakkan dia, aku cakap.

"ermmm.. sapela yg wangi sgt ni? owh, Tok yana rupenya"
she's smile

& bila aku pakaikan dia tudung, aku puji dia..

"Cantiknye Tok ni, cantik sgt bila Tok pakai tudung ni"
she's smile

Masa aku tertidur, aku perasan dia usap kepala aku. Sejam kemudian dia mula meracau2.. X ingat pape.. Sedih aku.

After operation, she always cried. My father hug her and said...
"Jgn risau Mak, ingat Allah, istighfar byk2, kami sayangkan mak"

my Pak Li also hug her and said...
"Mak, walaupun mak kehilangan kaki, tapi mak jangan risau. Mak x kehilangan kami. Kami semua sayangkan mak."

Warghhh...!! Touching my heart. Aku sedih sgt2..

For me,
-I know Tok is a strong person, but she also need us to fight with her life.
-I know, she' very sad because after this, she need to depends on us
-Aku sentiasa doakan kesejahteraan dia, doakan dia tabah menghadapi dugaan *itu yang aku selalu bisikkan di telinga Tok*
-Aku sgt sayangkan dia...