...xtvt during semester 1 (master of science)...

banyak benda yang nak dikongsikan sebenarnya...
tapi disebabkan kekangan masa dan jugak aku xley nak upload pic banyak2...
aku upload pic yang ada je

kenangan masa semester 1 di uum (master of science - managerial communication)

H1N1 + work as sales assistant

time ni aku keje part time kat kedai baju kat changlon.. keje cam nak mati tapi gaji cam hampeh... @#$%^
tapi macamne pun aku ngn ety enjoy sokmo dgn pe yg kitorag wat

nape pakai mask tu.. sbb H1N1 dah merebak kat kedah especially kat UUM *tambah2 dekat ngan siam*
langkah keselamatan tu...

we wearing the mask because H1N1 was spread in UUM
*haha... actually we wearing this coz want to snap pic*

ety as mask model

me wearing mask *but im not a model*

2 little cute boy also wearing a mask

motor ku pancit ditengah malam

masa ni aku nak pergi tengok wayang dengan Ety
mungkin x diberkati Allah, sebab tu pancit kot... huhu..

*masa ni bulan pose, khamis malam jumaat... dahla x g terawih, baca Yassin pun x, ley lak nak pegi tgk wayang... sudahnye panggung wayang tu tutup, motor aku pancit.. pukul 12 tgh malam lak tu.. nasib baik adik2 ni ada*

maceh adik2....

ni la hero yg selamatkan kami malam tu

ni kwn2 budak yg baik tu

tgk tu, bersusah payah je.. huhu

study...study..study...

haha.. studyla sgt..
aku, ety ngan zamani...
dduk kat library sampai pagi... tapi xtau benda yg aku wat...
*kene baca 20 jurnal dowh... pedih mata aku*

sempat lagi berpossing ngan ety

ety wat2 tekun

haha... zamani pun sama wat2 rajin

aku... xde dlm pic

...maaf lagi...

sorry la pasal hr tu
abg long blur dan tengah sakit
semua kena marah.... kak husna pun kena sekali

apa dah jadi?
nape suma orang mintak maaf dgn aku?

p/s: aku kelaparan
the hungry me is a angry me

...salah aku...

salam
yana..mara kngah ker?
kngah minta maaf ye..
geram sbb dah pesan buat juga
yana pun tau abg long mcm maner
patut ynan xwat mcm2
k

actually aku x marah pon ngn kakngah. kecik ati je.
yela, aku paham kakngah byk problem
bagi aku benda ni kecil sgt
cuma feedback yang aku dapat dari dia amat mengejutkan

bagi aku x salah tanya kat abanglong soalan tu
dia patut sedar apa yg dia buat tu salah
sbb tu aku tanya

aku masa BB dah xde, family aku cuba rahsiakan dari aku.
bila aku dapat tau sedih sgt2...

apatah lg mak aku... insan yg melahirkan abanglong
harusla sedih...
abanglong berhari-hari kat spital
mak langsung x tau..

yelah...
salah aku...sibuk hal org

...someone stranger in my house?...

ermmm... not a stranger actually, but new housemate
aku xnk housemate baru..
nak idup berdua dgn ety...
tapi makcik ni dah merayu bagi pihak anak dia...
entahla... *sigh*

i don't know whether i do the right decision or not,
when i let the girl step into our house.
then the weird thing is, her mum want stay with us...
for a couple days..
eeeyuhh...!!!
makcik ni left her husband and sons to take care of her daughter..???

why?

1)maybe anak dia manja sgt *suma benda mak dia yg buatkan*

2)maybe makcik tu gaduh ngan laki dia *teka mak aku*

3)maybe makcik tu dah berpisah dgn laki dia *teka kakak ety*

whatever it is, that makcik should know about private area *she never step in to my room*
but she changed all the things in our house..*sigh again*
and she never lock the door when she going out

should i tell her?

or ignore and sabar?

or aku yg kene pindah ngan ety? *x bley blah*

btw, as usual... i need to see all this from the bright side *ayat utk memujuk ati*

i) makcik tu baik sebenarnya *aku ke yg x baik?*

ii)makcik tu........ *ish....aku xley pikir kebaikan dia..*

aku perlukan masa...

mungkin budak senyap tu ley jadi kwn aku *haha... cam kelakar je statement ni*

p/s: masih cuba mengubat kedukaan di hati

...again and again...

i lost my kitten again.. BB was died yesterday. Wargghhh..!!!!

Salah aku ke? Semua kucing yang aku sayang mati...

MakNyau, Abg Tom, Abg Sue, Beto, comel, Abu, MEIMEI uppa, si kecik nyau2, BB, Hero

ley ke kita jumpa nanti?

...sentap...

aku rasa cam sentap je arini

...fail...

today maybe not a best day in my life, but also not a bad day.

penantian aku selama sebulan lebih ni terjawab..
aku dgn jayanya telah gagal iv PTD ari 2...
ermm...quite sad... but i'm ready for that..
i know my ability when i was enter to iv room, and all this was an expected.

Sebenarnya, aku mmg salu fail lam mana2 iv *nak mntk keje jaga kedai gambar kt uum pon fail*
mungkin kene mandi bunga kot bwh jmbatan Pulau Pinang.. huhu..

for those who succeed, congrats ...

wish me luck for exam tomorrow *1st exam for master*

i'll be back for iv PTD next year *kene exam balik daa..*

pada mak abah, jgnla kecewa, ni maybe bukan rezeki anakmu ini... sob3x...

...sedih...

hari ni aku rasa sedih sangat2 mlm ni... :(

byk bnda yg menyedihkan aku... :(

rasa aku ni nyusahkan sgt2... :(

rasa aku ni useless... :(

sedih sgt2... :(

sedih... :(

sgt :(

:(

...pose ke x ni...

I'm suppose to be fasting today.. But.. aduyai... kantoi *phm2 ler*
So, aku berbuka ngan air soya umes...
Nape air soya cap umes?
Sebab aku kat bilik Umes ngan Aida... hehe...
Nape aku ley kat bilik Umes ngan Aida?
Sebabnye aku kene tinggal ngan rumet aku :P *dia g iv daa*

Macam mana pun, maceh banyak sgt2 kat kawan aku berdua ni sbb sanggup terima aku menumpang kasih sayang kat bilik diorang ni... Baik sgt sbb dorang asik suh aku makan je.. hehe...

...aku pencinta ais krim...

Aku x suke sgt makan coklat. Tapi aku paling suka makan ais krim... Malangnya, walaupun aku makan dengan kadar yang berlebihan, berat aku x pernah bertambah... huhu...

Aku selalu makan ais krim Ety....
Maafla T, bukan aku sengaja, kesian kat ais krim tu kesejukan lam peti sejuk, bek duduk lam perut aku, lagi selamat.. hehe....

Malam ni aku rasa aku bosan giler... malam semalam pon sama... Bak kata aku, ari2 mmg bosan...

...lalala...

Next week kick itself badly... I need do DR Adrian assignment - academic writing (based on my project), read 20 journal- do statistic assignment (maybe I choose multiple regression), lastly... I have an EXAM on 16/10/09, 30/10/09, 31/10/09..... My God!! I didn't prepare any yet..

Lalala~~~ going crazy now

....BLUR!!...

Blur again :((

Perkara yang akan aku buat kalau blur....

1) Gosok gigi
2)Tido

Aku dah gosok gigi banyak kali arini, tapi still xde pape.
Nak tido ah..

bye...

..."walaupun mak kehilangan kaki..."...

Errmmm... Alhamdulillah... Kaki Tok aku selamat di potong. Before she going to operation theater, I was taking care of her for one day *sehari suntuk aku jaga dia*.

Dari mandikan dia, tukar lampin, bagi makan ubat semuanya aku yang buat. Tambah yang tukar lampin tu, bukan sekali dia buang air *x mainla buang air kecil*, tapi aku rasa lebih dari 5 kali. And only me to clean up everything because she doesn't want 1 Indonesian girl *bibik* to do it. Sometimes she forgot what's going on surrounding her. And always call me Aisyah *my cousin* she forgot my name. And sometimes she called me Puteh *my auntie*

Sedih sgt. Sebab masa aku kecil dulu, dia penah jaga aku, mandikan aku, bagi aku makan, tukar lampin aku.. Tapi skang ni, aku yang buat suma tu.. x dapat nak gambarkan saat aku sabarkan dia, mntak dia byk2 berdoa, ingatkan Allah swt dan dia cakap,

"Doakan Tok ye"..
Yes, of course I will pray for you.. Because I'm your grand daughter.

How to describe her? She is a hardworking person, she like to cook, like to eat and like to babbling. Memang sgt rajin, sbb walaupun dia sakit, dia bley masak utk kami sekeluarga, bley plak nak basuh baju sendrik yang x tahan tu, tok aku ni mmg independent habis. But dia mmg ske membebel, ada je x kene. For me sometimes she are very annoying because always babbling about simple things. But now I miss that moment. I want hear her voice *she always scolded me* Her smile.. Her touch... God.. I miss all of that..

Skang.. dia terlantar di hospital, kehilangan sebelah kaki. Aku selalu bisikkan kalimah suci Al Quran, aku bergurau dengan dia supaya hiburkan hati yg gundah tu. Pas lap badan dia, aku bedakkan dia, aku cakap.

"ermmm.. sapela yg wangi sgt ni? owh, Tok yana rupenya"
she's smile

& bila aku pakaikan dia tudung, aku puji dia..

"Cantiknye Tok ni, cantik sgt bila Tok pakai tudung ni"
she's smile

Masa aku tertidur, aku perasan dia usap kepala aku. Sejam kemudian dia mula meracau2.. X ingat pape.. Sedih aku.

After operation, she always cried. My father hug her and said...
"Jgn risau Mak, ingat Allah, istighfar byk2, kami sayangkan mak"

my Pak Li also hug her and said...
"Mak, walaupun mak kehilangan kaki, tapi mak jangan risau. Mak x kehilangan kami. Kami semua sayangkan mak."

Warghhh...!! Touching my heart. Aku sedih sgt2..

For me,
-I know Tok is a strong person, but she also need us to fight with her life.
-I know, she' very sad because after this, she need to depends on us
-Aku sentiasa doakan kesejahteraan dia, doakan dia tabah menghadapi dugaan *itu yang aku selalu bisikkan di telinga Tok*
-Aku sgt sayangkan dia...